you'll never know......

i have the world's best 'best friend'..!!! N..you'll never know how much u mean to me...always have and always will...

thank you for being there for me....love you for everything you are....

sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.........

There are certain people you just keep coming back to
She is right in front of you
You begin to wonder could you find a better one
Compared to her now she's in question

And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same

Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you started to compare to someone not there

Looking for the right one you line up the world to find
Where no questions cross your mind
But she won't keep on waiting for you without a doubt
Much longer for you to sort it out

And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same

Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you started to compare to someone not there
Maybe you want it maybe you need it,
Maybe it's all you're running from,
Perfection will not come

And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes
We'd never know what's wrong without the pain
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same

Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you've started to compare to someone not there
Maybe you want it maybe you need it
Maybe it's all you're running from
Perfection will not come

Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you had her maybe you lost her to another
To another......

an end....and a beginning

Its been quite an eventful week...started out with the carol show and carol singing..which was really fun by the way...I've been going carol singing for the past three years now..and every year i get to wear this little hair band thingy (in the pic) with two little santas bobbing about on each side..and get this..the two santas actually light up alternately when turned on..how cool is that..??!!

Christmas was pretty good too...had a family get together and got a bunch of cool presents..!!

a new phase of my life has begun i think...i don't exactly know how to explain it..so I'm gonna leave it at this....

on a cold winter's night...................that was so deep

The first noel..the angels did sing
Was to certain poor shepherds in fields as they lay
In fields where they,lay keeping their sheep..
On a cold winters night..............
That was...aaaaaagggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....

In case ur wondering what that was..that was me singing...and the "aaaaaagggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....." bit was my outburst when i couldn't get the note right...!!! And get this...this terribly embarrassing incident happened like 15 minutes before i was supposed to sing for the carol service..!!! That was so not the confidence boost that i needed..!!!

Anyway..the whole show went off pretty ok..according to me that is..! well i gotta go to bed...its 1:45 Christmas night and i gotta wake up in the morning n go for mass..!!!

the 'one'....

Do you believe that there's one person out there for you..just one person...the one person who is made for you...the one person who is destined to be yours and who is destined to have you as his for the rest of your lives..do u believe in this one person..???

Well..i believe in this one person..(even though a pretty big part of me is pessimism personified)

i believe that there is one person who you can spend all your life loving ...someone with who you can have a conversation with for hours and never seem to get bored of..a person who you can absolutely pour your heart out to without ever feeling the slightest bit awkward..someone who you find you can relate to in any situation ...someone who you could watch sleeping for hours on end thinking that that's the only face you need to look at for the rest of your life...someone with whom you know you could sing the craziest of songs and dance the craziest of dances with....the one and only person who you know will be by your side through every single step of the way..that one person is the person made for you..the person the universe intended for you to live your life with..your soulmate...............

As stupid as it may sound to some of you..i believe in soulmates...i think its better to wait for the 'one' rather than just be in a relationship for the sake of being in it...

And i also believe that when you meet the 'one'...you'll definitely know in your heart of hearts and he or she is the the 'one'...the 'one' made for you..the 'one' that your destined to be with and the 'one' who you will never let go of........

So until the day that i meet the 'one'...i'll hope that i will be lucky enough to find the 'one' as some people have.......

he he he.....absolutely HILARIOUS...!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lazy me is back...!! took off college again..cannot wait for the twenty days of pure laziness that await me...nothing to blog about,so i was looking for ways to spice up my other 'oh-so-boring' blogs...!!! and while i was looking around,i came across this blog by some fellow chennaites (think madrasis sounds better)...and i read this post which was so incredibly hilarious that it made me literally roll on the floor with laughter...for the benefit of those of you who are too freakin lazy to go there and read it..here it is...

HOTEL KERALA-FONIA - by The Yeagles

On the road to Trivandrum
Coconut oil in my hair
Warm smell of avial
Rising up through the air
Up ahead in the distance
I saw a bright pink tube-light
My tummy rumbled, I felt weak and thin
I had to stop for a bite
There he stood in the doorway
Flicked his mundu in style
And I was thinking to myself
I don't like the look of his sinister smile
Then he lit up a petromax
Muttering "No power today"
More Mallus down the corridor
I thought I heard them say

Welcome to the Hotel Kerala-fonia
Such a lousy place,
Such a lousy place (background)
Such a sad disgrace,
Plenty of bugs at the Hotel Kerala-fonia
Any time of year
Any time of year (background)
It's infested here
It's infested here

His finger's stuck up his nostril
He's got a big, thick mustache
He makes an ugly, ugly noise
But that's just his laugh
Buxom girls clad in pavada
Eating banana chips
Some roll their eyes, and
Some roll their hips
I said to the manager
My room's full of mice
He said,
Don't worry, saar, I sending you
meen karri, brandy and ice
And still those voices were crying from far away
Wake you up in the middle of the night
Just to hear them pray

Save us from the Hotel Kerala-fonia
Such a lousy place,
Such a lousy place (background)
Such a sad disgrace
Trying to live at the Hotel Kerala-fonia
It is no surprise
It is no surprise (background)
That it swarms with flies

The blind man was pouring
Stale sambar on rice
And he said
We are all just actors here
In Silk Smitha-disguise
And in the dining chamber
We gathered for the feast
We stab it with our steely knives
But we just can't cut that beef
Last thing I remember
I was writhing on the floor
That cockroach in my appam-stew was the culprit,
I am sure
Relax, said the watchman
This enema will make you well
And his friends laughed as they held me down
God's Own Country? Oh, Hell!

.....a cross in my pocket.....

I carry a cross in my pocket,
a simple reminder to me
of the fact that I am a Christian
no matter where I may be.

This little cross is not magic
nor is it a good luck charm.
It isn’t meant to protect me
from every physical harm.

It’s not for identification,
for all the world to see.
It’s simply an understanding
between my Savior and me.

When I put my hand in my pocket
to bring out a coin or key,
the Cross is there to remind me
of the price He paid for me.

It reminds me too, to be thankful,
for my blessings day by day,
and to strive to serve Him better
in all that I do and say.

It’s also a daily reminder
of the peace and comfort I share
with all who know my Master
and give themselves to His care.

So, I carry a cross in my pocket,
reminding no one but me,
that Jesus Christ is Lord of my life,
if only I’ll let Him be.



This has been my favorite set of lines for quite a few years now..ever since the first time i read them...

I think they say it all,dont you..??

i know I'm greedy...!!!

Call it greed,call it gluttony or just call it plain "Lemon's eyes are bigger than her stomach" (as my mum has always said)....i went and got a blog on wordpress..!!!! i already know that i cant handle two blogs..and now I've gone and gotten myself a third..i seriously could not help it..the temptation was just too overwhelming..!!!!Guess that's because I've done all that I've wanted to do with this blog (except for the cursor thing ) and now i cant help but want MORE...!!! m still trying to figure out wordpress..hope i get to figure out all the intricacies that are there to figure out..not that I'm a master at blogger or anything...but you know what I'm talking about right..???

nervousness,hyperness and my perpetual madness!!!

Its been a day of nervousness,hyperness and my all time perpetual madness...got up at 6.30(went to sleep at 4.30 last nite) and ran to college..to go catch the largest board in class for my display...had a jury...which was supposed to start at 9 but as usual, my college with their 'i-don't-give-a-rat's-ass-about-time'attitude prevailed yet again,which wasn't much of a suprise really ,started promptly an hour late...so there were like 9 people in the same session as me(thank god my parents were sensible enough to have named me with a name that starts with an 'a'..cause im sure if it were any further in the line of alphabets..i would have surely bitten up my fingers and not to mention my toes from the shitty tension that i have to go through each and every time m faced with an exam)...god..where was i??? ah..ya..9 people in the same session as me..and i swear the members of the jury kept us each inside drilling us not for less than thirty minutes each..and as usual i had to be one of the last few..the third last to be precise in the line of torture that was awaiting us...so anyway,i go in..and this guy asks me to explain one sheet which i think i have hone my best in..so automatically i look to the the board..but then he's like no..not from the board but from the table(i mean hello..!!! the whole point of putting things up on the bloody board is to show off your good stuff..!!!)..so anyway..i picked one..and mumbled and fumbled and tried to convince him that i knew what i was talking about..!!! then they move on to my posters(which you can see on the far right)...and this one guy is like 'it looks like these three posters have been done by three different people'..and im like mortified(i mean what the hell is the trying to suggest...well..i know what you were suggesting you ass)hence,i give him this look and ask him if he wanted to see my sketches..he politely refuses..like as if i was offering him a freaking cup of english tea and a cream scone..!!! so then,they go on about the posters,checking and cross checking if i knew what i was doing...and finally this female looks at one of the posters(the last one on the right) and says it looked psychedelic to her...!!! so i was like..ma'am its not supposed to be..its supposed to attract kids(since its an ad for a kids summer art camp)..so,anyway..she went from psychedelic to jamacian to african and then the jury members and i surprisingly started a discussion on the invasions of africa...dont even ask..!!! anyway..i was sooooooooooo glad when it was over..hope they dont flunk me for some of the cheeky remarks i made(i meant for them to be sweet and endearing but god knows how they took it...!!)....as i was saying..its been a day of nervousness,hyperness and madness(pre-jury) and also a day of the never-ending laziness(post-jury)that just seems to be a part of me that im sure i'll never be able to shrug off unless some serious measures are taken(he he..which we all know will never happen...atleast not in this lifetime)............

something beautiful.......

You can't manufacture a miracle
The silence was pitiful-that day
And love is getting too cynical
Passion's just physical-these days
You analyse everyone you meet
But get no sign - loving kind
Every night you admit defeat
And cry yourself blind

If you can't wake up in the morning
'Cause your bed lies vacant at night
If you're lost, hurt, tired or lonely
Can't control it try as you might
May you find that love that won't leave you
May you find it by the end of the day
You WON'T be lost, hurt, tired or lonely
Something beautiful will come your way

for N..............

aaahhhhhhh....another morning ,another day...(sorry guess its more like another afternoon,another day...he he he..)was talkin to one of my best friends last night and he was whining bout how he isn't mentioned enough on my blog..well here's a whole post on you N..so u better be happy..!!! Growing up,i always thought having a guy as your best friend was highly wierd,i mean..i used to wonder how you could tell a guy all ur secrets..and to top it off how could you possibly talk to a guy about other guys..!!! But u know something...it is possible to have a completely platonic relationship with guy..and i discovered this when i met N...I've known N almost my entire life..well not exactly my entire life but atleast for about 10 or 12 years now..but i really got to know him only a couple of months back..and from that i can positively say that having a guy as your best friend is a billion times better than having a girl as your best friend..!!! (save for a few exceptions..!!!) N is the type of person you know that you can always always count on..for absolutely anything...from giving you advice on any subject under the sun to cheering you up when your down in the dumps to a million other things...!!! Now N,he's the deep guy that i mentioned in one of the earlier posts,usually has like about a thousand things milling around in that head of his...loves 'logical puzzles',loves 'being right'(every single time..ppstt:i hate to admit this but he almost always is..),loves 'inventing stuff',loves to think that his 'brain is actually brainy'..he he he,loves 'analysing stuff',loves coming up with the wierdest of 'theories' and above all loves 'obsessing about himself'..!!!! Every single person should have an N in their lives...and i know that i am soo lucky to have the one and only N as my best friend...thanks for everything N..love you and hope i can be there for you as much as u've been there for me..please dont ever change..atleast for my sake...hope you get everything u ever wanted............................

p.s; did i mention that he also likes to think that he's the 'funniest guy' alive..!!! (well N..ur not..!!! he he he)

21 things i want to do before i die...

This list is absolutely in no particular order...



1) Climb up to the top of the empire state building...I mean walk up..(this I know will never happen,b'coz sadly I have absolutely no stamina..!!)

2) Bungee jump off the highest bridge in the world(wherever tat may be)

3) See disneyland entirely..ride every ride and hug every mouse ;)

4) Walk the entire length of the great wall of china..this is one thing that i've always dreamt of doing...

5) Live in the big apple..atleast for a year...new york,new york...*sigh*...

6) Visit iceland..I probably wouldn't be able to handle the cold..but that isn't gonna stop me..

7) Read all the danielle steels'..im well on my way on this one..

8) Go scuba diving in the great barrier reef..

9) Have twin boys..he he he...

10) Go fishing...

11) Learn how to surf..and loose my fear for water...

12) Loose like 20 kilos and look 'hot' for atleast one day in my entire life..!!!

13) Learn how to make some delectable chilly beef..so that i'll never have to go hungry...(this is the gluton in me talking)

14) Write a book...guess the blogging is actually practice for the real thing...

15) Sing in a band....yea rite,like thats gonna happen..!!!

16) Try to make the world a better place in whatever small little way i can..for example..start a free hugs campaign..though i know that i would never have the guts to do tat...

17) Get a tattoo from chris garver..who by the way has a two year waiting list..

18) Learn to speak french like a true blue parisian...je souhaite....

19) Try out every single cuisine there is..even veitnamese with its fried cockroaches...

20) Travel the world........................................

21) Have my dying wish fulfilled..whatever it may be...



I will keep adding to the above list as and when i think of things..till then.......

burning eye-lids......... :(

Been meaning to write a post for the past few days now..keep starting and then kept getting bored...m i bored of my blog already?????(panicked expression)....nah..its too early in the game for me to get bored...usually takes awhile..been having a splitting headache since the morning AND felling feverish..this almost never happens to me..i never ever fall sick..ok,except for maybe like once in three years or something...and the thing is that I would always wanna get sick to bunk school but i never did...there's this saying that if you cut a slice of onion and stand with it under your armpit under the sun,you'll actually get a temperature..!! Always wanted to try it...but the onion under the armpit part put me off..ugghhh...anyway,was hopping around the blogosphere (god..that sounds sooo cool!!!) and came across this site called bloghop..its a pretty cool site...despite the fact that i didnt find a single blog that caught my attention..!!!Tried adding my blog to the list but i think its still stuck in the process...i've added the link at the bottom..so check it out if u want to...life rite now..isn't really bad..did total crap for my computer exam on monday..but then again..not a big surprise..one thing that i've discorved with this whole blogging deal is that html is pretty cool,...i did actually learn it a couple of years ago when i got this supposed "diploma" from orchid computers(dont even ask!!!) after this summer course that i went for when i was like twelve..i dint even wanna go for the stupid course cause that was the year when i really really wanted a bike ( and by bike,i mean a cycle )and my parents straight off refused to get one for me...I,the spoit child that i was( not really ;) ), made this huge fuss saying that it was the same price of the course and instead of ditching the bike..they should have gotten me the bike and made me ditch the stupid course..anyway..guess it was for the best..learnt alot through the summer(animation on powerpoint is amazing..he he..m suprised i even remember how to do it..!!! )..and did actually get the bike at the end of the summer..!!! It was a fushcia pink ladybird..and i absolutely adored it..!!!! It was like the light of my life at that time..used to ride it around everyday..those were some of the best days of my life..riding my pretty bike around the neighbourhood...most usually i would take the bike around to the nearest "fancy store" ( I was very fond of the five rupee nail polish bottles...!!!) to go check out if they had any new erasers for my never ending collection of "3-D erasers"...and if you dont think that that's cool..well i dont care.. I DO..!!! I think that this has been one of the longest posts that i have ever writtin...but the funny part is..i dont seem to remember where i started(see...the wonderful phenomemon of changing topics)..guess this post has jus been a post of randomness...and crappy randomness at that...think m gonna hit the sack...its almost two something in the morning...n my eye-lids are freaking burning..!!!!!

blah................

my poor blog has been rotting for a week now..jus haven't had the energy to put up a post..sleepness nights and work-filled days got the best of me..my life is mess...seriously don't feel like dealing with it....just finished with a jury..hope i dont flunk...been so disconnected with the world for the past few days....hmmmmmmmm..no words right now..so i'll jus put up another post tommorow..ta for now....

aaahhhhh...my brains are clogging..!!!

my brains are clogging..they really are..!!! i've got so much of work,n i have no clue where to start..college is gettin really hectic and i cant take it anymore...!!! anyway..enough talk about the dreadliness(is that even a word??!!!) that is my life...!!! moving on...i think writer's block has finally got to me(not that im much of a writer) but my fingers just dont seem to be moving over the keyboard as deftly as they used to..anyway,think i'll jus save my energy...enough of this random crap for today....

free hugs..........

Found this video today..and i think that the idea is absolutely amazing..almost brought tears to my eyes..haven't seen anything this beautiful and heart-warming in ages...god..the world needs more projects like this..this is all we need to make the world a better place...im not gonna say anything more cause i think the video speaks for itself..and to all you guys reading this (if there are any of you'll out there)...a big hug from me..*hug*

dreams...........

Stared a new blog called lemon's blogabook to keep track of all the books that i read..which are quite a few...this new blog is an absolute necessity for me since i like read a thousand books and forget all the names and the stories and sometimes i wind up reading the same book again or checking out the same book from the library..maybe years from now i would have actually finished making a full log and then i can show it to my grandchildren...now wouldn't that be fun..he he..inspire my grandkids to read..ya rite..who am i kidding..they'd probably be too busy playing on an inter-galactic playground or in mars or something like that..anyway..cant blame me for dreaming,rite..?? My dad's always going on about how much he wants to throw out all the stuff that i keep hoarding to show to my grandkids..i dunno why..but i cant help keeping stuff,especially to show to my grandkids and my great grandkids..guess this is coz my grandmom always told me these really cool stories about when she was a kid...and when i was younger i always used to ask her why she never kept any of her stuff to show me..!! Guess thats what prompted me to start collecting stuff...so that my grandkids wont have a chance to ask me that...if any of my grandkids read this in the future..u know that i already love you'll and that im already thinking about you'll................

my new template...!!!!!!!

God...isn't it the coolest..???? Found it by chance on this site...absolutely love the banner and the footer..they are so incredibly cute and extremly cool at the same time..!!! Took off college today...and did nothing but laze..god..m gonna have to watch myself..cant seem to get off my ass nowadays..!! anyway..nothing else to say...

m back..........

ahhhhhh...feels so good to be back...my blogger break was definitly NOT intentional..stupid bloody wreck of a computer tat i own..!!! So..college started again after a relaxing four day break..by relaxing..i mean i jus slept the four days away..without doin a single ounce of work..!! god..the day before the much needed weekend i had to stay up the entire nite...yes, i mean the entire nite..!!! to finish assignments...finished at about 7.30 got dressed and ran to college..n then guess wat happened..turned out that i was the only one in the entire class to finish all the bloody work...the only one..!!! i was sooo irritated but quite happy at the same time because i was the only lame ass to finish everything..happy cause i could gloat at all my friends who were too busy partyin to do anything...ya..its quite sad tat i dont party...but m not really a party girl..actually hate parties..hate socialising..m actually quite proud of the introvert in me...ya i know that sounds wierd..but i cant help it..like..when i was younger..me and my equally crazy friend..wanted to be these really snobby bitches..god knows wat had gotten into us...!! But i've got to admit tat it was a good phase of my life...he he...m not bein evil..!!! i swear...lol...isn't it funny that when u start talking about something..you automatically keep switching from one topic to another..this just shows that your mind cant stay put..or rather that its tough for 'me' to stay on a subject without having deviated atleast thrice..!!! see..m doin it again..dont even know where i started..anyway..m gonna save the wonder of this phenomenon for another post...oooohh...found pandora.com today..its so totally cool..jus the thing i need..!!Anyway..gonna shut up now...coz my mind is whirling with thoughts that i jus cant seem to put down.. because there are jus too many in there.....talk later...

Its been awhile....

Its been awhile since i've posted anything..thats probably cause i've been so damn busy and lazy..(actually more lazy than busy)...anyway..past few days were ok..today was totally crappy..n i really dont wanna talk about it..!!! College sucks big time..they postponed our holidays by a month...so been quite pissed bout that too..!! I've been quite an angry little child for the past few days...everything's been gettin on my nerves..have absolutely no outlet for all this pent up teenage angst and rage in me...!! Guess this is just a phase..hopefully i'll get through it pretty quickly...hopefully it'll pass..and hopefully i turn back into the normal lil wierdo that i am.....so until next time..which will probably be next week...this is lemonade signing off..(god..that sounds so damn corny..!!!)

Its unbelieveable...!!!!

Came across this link today..it is absolutely unbelievable...u have to think of a two digit number and then add the two digits and then subtract the total from the original number..and then all u have to do is concentrate on the symbol given for ur final number and click on the crystal ball...and almost magically you'll see ur symbol..seriously this is one of the coolest things i have come across online...!!!try it...its really really cool...

now i've found you....there's no more emptiness inside....

i was standing all alone against the world outside,
you were searching for a place to hide,
lost and lonely,now you've given me the will to survive,
when we're hungry,love will keep us alive.......

dont you worry,sometimes you've just gotta let it ride,
the world is changing,right before you're eyes,
now i've found you,there's no more emptiness inside,
when we're hungry love will keep us alive....

i would die for you,climb the highest mountain,
baby,there's nothing i wouldn't do......

now i've found you there's no more emptiness inside,
when we're hungry,
love will keep us alive...........

two days..on a page.....(lame,i know...!!)

Two days of utter bliss..m so glad that things are back to the way that they were...m feeling extremly satisfied with my life right now... except for the fact that college starts tommorrow..and i am soo not looking forward to the weeks of torture that i have to go through before the semester ends..!!
Wrote the paragraph above yesterday..wasn't in the mood to complete the post..today was the first day of college after ten lazy days of me not once gettin off my ass...back to the daily grind..arrgghhh...why does life has to be so challenging..i mean..come on..a break once in a while would definitly help ( oh wait...i did jus have a break..10 days..the good things in life are so easy to forget,aren't they..?? ) Anyway...no work today..so will have some time to finish my book...not in the mood to write anymore today..so..till next time...tah-tah (like the english say it..lol..)

The real me...!!!! (supposedly...!!!)

Something fun that i discovered...god knows how much of it is even true

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have low extroversion. You are quiet and reserved in most social situations. A low key, laid back lifestyle is important to you. You tend to bond slowly, over time, with one or two people. Conscientiousness: You have medium conscientiousness. You're generally good at balancing work and play. When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done. But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it. Agreeableness: You have low agreeableness. Your self interest comes first, and others come later, if at all. In general, you feel that people are not to be trusted. And you're skeptical that anyone else really feels differently. Neuroticism: You have medium neuroticism. You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic. Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy. Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is low. You're a pretty conservative person, and you favor what's socially acceptable. You think that change for novelty's sake is a very bad idea. While some may see this as boring, many see you as dependable and wise.

The Five Factor Personality Test

Your Personality Is

Guardian (SJ) You are sensible, down to earth, and goal oriented. Bottom line, you are good at playing by the rules. You tend to be dominant - and you are a natural leader. You are interested in rules and order. Morals are important to you. A hard worker, you give your all at whatever you do. You're very serious, and people often tell you to lighten up. In love, you tend to take things carefully and slowly. At work, you are suited to almost any career - but you excel in leadership positions. With others, you tend to be polite and formal. As far as looks go, you are traditionally attractive. You take good care of yourself. On weekends, you tend to like to do organized activities. In fact, you often organize them!

The Three Question Personality Test

Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment. They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

How Do People See You?

Life is good again.....

Cant believe what happened today...!!! My past is now my present again...and i cant tell you how happy i am..!!! Never gonna do stupid things again(and thats a promise to myself)...Life is good again and i cant be happier....!!!

lemonade for life....

I've really gotten used to this blogging thing..except for the fact that you have to republish your blog everytime you make a change...that is sooo incredibily irritating...!!! I've been broswing through alot of random blogs..but unfortunately i didnt seem to find anything that interested me very much.Let me tell you how i got started in this wide,wide world called the blogosphere(thats wat its called,isn't it..??!)i found out that my cousin had a very famous(or should i say infamous)blog..which i wasn't allowed to visit..and obviously ,me being the way i am, had to do a fair amount of snooping till i finally found it...that blog totally,and i mean totally changed my opinion about my cousin..i saw her in a whole new different angle..in the past we weren't very close n still aren't(maybe cause she doesn't know that i am now a faithful reader of her blog,which is quite amazing i must say) but atleast i can safely say that i know her as person and know another side of her that i have never ever seen before...and that jus changes everything...shit,back to what i was originally talking about..so,basically her blog inspired me to start blogging..this blog i guess is just a diary of sorts..i've always wanted to write a diary(and actually did a couple of times,even though i'd only write it for the first three days of the year before i gave up)and now finally i have one..!! yay for me...!!! Oh and also wanted to explain 'lemonade' to u guys...lemons are sour and you add sugar to it to make it sweet and therefore make lemonade..so that jus translates into life being sour and you puttin ur own sugar into it to make it lemonade(ever heard of the sayin "if life gives you lemons,then make lemonade"..its exactly the same)...yeah..so thats the basic lemonade story..and also that i happen to be a complete lemon and lime aficionado...so m gonna end by saying..."lime ice cream rules..!!!!!"(and i am sooo not kidding about that..!!!)

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Another turning point,a fork stuck in the road..
Time grabs you by the wrist ,directs you where to go..
So make the best of this test and dont ask why..
Its not a question but a lesson learned in time..

Happily ever after.........

Went for a wedding two weeks back...i've known the couple for about five years or so and the bride incidentally also happens to be my ex-boyfriend's sister,which made the entire evening all the more interesting(not in a good way,i might add)...!!! Anyway...the ex and i were both being civil to each other so i have to give myself and him the credit for that...going on to the wedding...i cannot begin to explain to you in words the happiness and excitement i saw on the ecstatic couples' faces...the entire wedding was beyond beautiful...right from the minute the glowing bride walked down the aisle with her then to-be fiance serenading her till the very last dance of the reception..!! It was one of those 'one of a kind' weddings...a modern day fairy tale as the happy couple described it.The newly weds had been together for about ten and a half years (m not kidding) before they got married and i can imagine them being together for the next seventy years..anyway...jus wrote this post in hope that i may also(at some point in my life) be as lucky as they were in finding the'ONE'...congragulations you guys...may ur love last forever.........................

another day.....

Feels like jus yesterday,you were a part of me
I used to stand so tall,i used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight,everything felt so right
Unbreakable,like nothing could go wrong............

God...these words describe exactly how i feel...i couldn't find anything as apt as this.Why did i do wat i did...i know that ur not supposed to regret the decisions that u make,but somehow..i cant help it...i mean i dont totally regret it..its jus that sometimes i wonder how things woulb be if i hadn't opened my big fat mouth..!! Whats done is done i guess...have to live with it my whole life...jus hope i didnt make a mistake....

I hate sad endings....!!!

Went for a movie today...the much publicised 'the break-up'..wit jen anniston and vince vaughn...my perception of the movie,as i guess most people's would be..was that since it was called 'the break-up'..that the couple would obviously get back together at the end...but alas(i jus had to say that..lol) they dont get back together...!!!I mean wat the hell is the point of payin good money to go see a movie that makes u feel sad at the end...!!! It totally,completely,utterly defeats the point...!!!!!!!!! As u have probably guessed by now..i hate movies wit sad endings...they jus get me sooo depressed..i mean..come on..ur free one evening..and u decide to watch a movie...why on earth would u wanna watch something thats bound to make u feel all sad and depressed...!Annyway..atleast one good thing came out of tat movie..jen and vince gettin together in real life...tat girl really didnt deserve wat that bastard brad pitt did to her...anyway..all's well that ends well i guess...jen and vaughn are still goin strong according to the rumour mills...n my life is still feels like a never-ending roller coaster...so i guess tats it for now....

life.............and death.

Was jus talking to a friend who was slightly down thinking of life....i mean that guy is so damn deep but he doesn't know it...in his own way,i think he does...but he's scared to show that side to most people..anyway,who am i to judge!Wat he said got me to thinking...were do we actually go when we die...we all think tat we either go to heaven or to hell...but maybe..jus maybe..there's some other place..some other parallel universe that exists,where u go after u die..n live the same life that u've been living all over again..or maybe ur taken to a different planet where ur invisible and where u can do absolutely anything u want to do...or maybe u go somewhere awful to pay for all the sins you committed...but then again,thats probably hell...! I've always felt that if u did something wrong and were not found out or punished for it,then u would probably be when u die..so i guess its better to face the music now than wait until pergatory where the punishment for whatever we have done,however petty it maybe,will obviously get worse..heaven or hell..or wherever else we go...i guess god will probably make sure that we go someplace we deserve..........

god..! its so frustrating..!!!.................

INTERNET companies really get on my nerves...!! i mean come on...they actually expect you to sit pretty until they come and do their job which conviniently takes more than a few hours than its supposed to..!! anyway..m glad they finally got it done. Been thinking about my life today...and i mean really thinking...i've got so many decisions to make...n its so hard...worse than hard,its confusing..!! Waiting for a moment of clarity in ur life is one of the toughest things to do..i mean..m trying to see the situation that m in ,in all the possible angles that exist..but i jus cant seem to find an answer....guess i'll jus have to do a lil more...wait..scrap that..a lot more soul searching to figure out exactly what m going to do...i know i've already hurt someone because of what i did..but i couldn't help it at that time..i really did not see the purpose of continuing something that had nothing left in it(at that time)....but now m wondering if i made a mistake....

12 at night............

Was jus talkin to a friend and he was making me search for logical questions online..so tat he could solve them... u think they're easy,let me tell you that they actually aren't..or ya they..anyway..they actually are pretty tough..actually they're not(god!! why cant i jus make up my mind) if u think in a simple 'think out of the box' way...but if u try to act all clever..they're pretty hard...anyway...im wondering if anyone one will ever read this blog...maybe i should tell people about it...but then again...maybe i shouldn't..m sure tat there are tons of bloggers out there who are doin this without thier friends and family knowing about it...its not that i dont want them to know....its jus that...its pretty embarassing knowing that people that u know will actually be reading wat u write,ur words n your thoughts...i dont know...it jus seems highly wierd...anyway...if anyone that i know stumbles upon this blog and figures out who i am...ssshhhh....dont tell anyone else about it..........!!!

This is so exciting..!!

ah..i jus wrote my first post a few hours back..n i came online now to find that i actually had one profile view...!!!! yay...!! whoever u are..hope u liked it. m on a ten day break rite now...so ill probably be sitting online the whole time now. this blogger thing is so new to me....its gonna take some getting used to...but m tellin myself,tat i will master the art of blogging or whatever its called in a few days...today has been a really really sleepy day ..each time i pick up my book...i find myself dozing..and its so damn irritating.!! i think college work is really gettin to my head...its hols and all i can think about is if i have some work to finish...(by the way,tats cause i usually have like a ton load of work every evening...!! its not funny how much of work they load us with..!!!) This is so damn ironic..10 whole days without any work...and that is all i can think about..anyway..m sure that this blog will help keep my mind off college...for a while atleast....until next time....whic i guess will probably be in a few hours) lol.....

the first one

yipee...!!! my first blog ever..!!! wonder if anyone will even read it...!! anyway...jus wanted to do this cause ive never actually written anything before...well..except for essays in school..which doesnt really count..! so basically this blog is gonna be about my life...not everything...jus some random things that aren't too long to actually sit and type out.. n how i think things in this world should work ....i jus wanna say what i wanna say..i dont need anyone to agree with me..i jus wanna put my thoughts out...even thought m probably the only one who will ever read this blog...!!! if anyone else is reading this..n even slighlty enjoying my random writing....thanks alot..u've made my day...!! well...till the next one then.............bub bye...............
ps..comments are always welcome...even ones tat i can take as constructive criticism...

about me

I’m 18 at the moment, I’m usually the shortest in any room and I like to think that I’m really funny even though people tell me I’m not. I find college mind numbingly stressful just like any other teen but the similarity ends there! I can assure you that there's only one of me that you will ever know!

I live in one of the four metros in India (I’ll give you a hint, it beings with the letter C and you get the most amazing dosas here). I’m mean, loud and obnoxious most of the time, but the rest of the time I’m pretty sweet (I swear). I’m a huge whiner and a cribber and a grumbler. I’ve been known to hold grudges, so don’t mess with me. If you do, chances are, I won’t ever forgive you or I’ll probably just bug you about it for the rest of your life or until you kill me. Whichever happens first.

....And now if you’ll divert your eyes to the extremes of your monitor, you’ll also be able to witness my love for freakish amounts of bright colors.

People call me weird, hyper, strange, peculiar and you can look to the thesaurus for other synonyms, because believe me, if they exist, I’m sure I’ve been called them! Now you are allowed to call me any of those names but I’d much rather prefer being called eccentric. I think it has a rather nice ring to it.

About This Blog

This blog happened to have won a Bloggie for Best Asian Blog of 2008. I have no clue how it happened. Its a web mystery, I tell you!

Anyway, I discovered a new found interest in writing sometime back and since then, I've found that there's no turning back. For people who have just entered the blog world..trust me, you're bound to get addicted..!

I started this blog about a year and a half back on a whim. I’m happy that it has grown and developed into something that is now a huge part of my life and of me. This blog has an awful lot of ‘me’ in it. A ‘me’ that not many know and probably never will know. It is also supposedly anonymous, but a good number of people currently know about it, which doesn’t make all this any easier to write! The current look of this blog is its 4th redesign in the year and a half of its life. With each redesign, the name keeps changing in order to preserve a tiny fragment of its dwindling anonymity.

The blog is run on blogger which is one of the simplest blog publishing systems (if you’re looking to start a blog you probably should start with it). Take it from me, who was a blog novice a year and a half ago (I now design and code blog templates for heaven’s sake!). Speaking of which, I also have a template design blog which you should check out. Its pretty darn cool, if I may say so myself. Being a design student its only natural that I was drawn to template design. It’s a world in which I can get lost and see myself dancing around trying to catch chocolate snowflakes in my mouth.

Ok, I think that’s more than enough information for this ‘About’ page which initially was supposed to have only 5 sentences! To know more about me, visit my blogger profile, my 100 things post, design blog or simply click on the home button and read the latest post. If I’m cribbing in it, (which I most probably will be) you can be sure that you’ve caught me on one of my best days!

Contact

You can contact me by mailing me at withnowheretogo@gmail.com (withnowheretogo(AT)gmail(DOT)com). Any mail or feedback is appreciated. Come on, throw your words at me, I dare you! :)

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