To go back a year later and peep into all the work you've done, is a tad depressing when you realize that it has all trickled down the drain leading to nowheresville.
Somewhere around this time, last year, I started my design blog, where I though it would be a brilliant idea to use my so called talent and dole out free custom templates to those in need of them, through the goodness of my heart.
Lets cut to the chase though. I cannot believe how FREAKING DELUSIONAL I was!!
When something is free, tons of people come running. I know I shouldn't be saying this though, because I was once known for walking around the supermarket trying to find items with the words 'FREE (something')' plastered on them, and then I would proceed to buy the said item just to obtain whatever I was getting free with it, and then I'd walk around the entire day, filled with glee because I had just gotten something FREE!!!
Requests came pouring in, and I tried to please. Requests for changes came, I gave up my last few minutes of internet time making them. Fonts that were disliked, I changed them. Colours that were a shade off, I changed those too and in the end, the people you help, end up screwing you over and start making money off of you. People get so demanding, that, after awhile you feel so bogged down and the trouble that you go through to do something for someone else just doesn't seem worth it anymore. Bloggers are a fussy bunch, we all know that, so I can't say I was too surprised that this happened. I was kinda expecting it at some point anyway, but I didn't think I'd crack this soon. I've actually been away from that space for quite awhile now, it depresses me to go back, because I always end up clicking on the links to find that my work has disappeared, not that I expected it to sit there for long, but not seeing it where it was just a couple of months back, hurts a little.
Just to make thing clear, I am not bitter. On the contrary, I cannot even begin to explain the amount of satisfaction it gives me when I looked at a finished project. I usually get up off of my chair, take a step back and survey my work and most often than not, feel this spurt of happiness inside that I know nothing else can ever trigger. I have to say that it was a amazing experience though.
I'm not planning to shut the blog down, that would break my heart, but I am planning on starting a new one where I'll be charging for services. Charging minimally, seeing how far a dollar goes in this country. I actually feel like a capitalistic pig for even thinking about this, but lets see how it goes for a couple of months. I actually didn't want too blog about any of this. Lately I seem to be rethinking everything I want to write about and finally end up not writing about it, but I started typing out this post, and now i fell like I have to publish it. I feel pretty horrible doing so, but this is my blog and this is what I'm feeling right now, so I'm gonna hit that publish button and hope to God that I don't get a ton of hate mail for this.
Saturday, May 17, 2008
Thursday, May 15, 2008
Hello you!
16 hours of sleep, two days worth of food and one huge pimple on my forehead, later, I am back!
A roller coaster ride of hits, misses (mostly misses) and torture and trauma has finally come to an end. It still doesn't erase the fact that I have two more tickets to ride this coaster. But for now, its done. I can finally breathe, breathe the air of food, sleep and most importantly the internet. I missed you. Not to say that I haven't been here all this time, oh I was here alright (What did you think was the root of all the procrastination that was going on) but never in spirit. If you've noticed, I'm back to being myself, never knowing what to say, so reverting to the one thing I know best, typing crap to make it seem like I actually have an entire blog post mapped out in this little head of mine.
So another summer at my feet, well, not exactly a whole summer, I leave to Calicut next week for two whole weeks! Not as exciting as it sounds though, its for a college project and everyone is pretty much as 'blah' about it as I am. I don't know why, but lately I seem to be feeling a bit 'blah' about everything. I guess I'm in a 'blah' phase right now, which hopefully should pass, not that I don't completely enjoy sitting around and feeling sorry for myself. Its awesome fun. You should try it sometime!
Yes I get it. I shouldn't exactly try and use sarcasm to be funny, it comes out completely wrong and then it prompts me to type out a stupid explanation as to why I'm so bad at this. Kill me already!
Anyway, the fact that the time is 2:42 isn't exactly helping the funk that I seem to be in. So I'll catch you at the other end of today! Bye!
A roller coaster ride of hits, misses (mostly misses) and torture and trauma has finally come to an end. It still doesn't erase the fact that I have two more tickets to ride this coaster. But for now, its done. I can finally breathe, breathe the air of food, sleep and most importantly the internet. I missed you. Not to say that I haven't been here all this time, oh I was here alright (What did you think was the root of all the procrastination that was going on) but never in spirit. If you've noticed, I'm back to being myself, never knowing what to say, so reverting to the one thing I know best, typing crap to make it seem like I actually have an entire blog post mapped out in this little head of mine.
So another summer at my feet, well, not exactly a whole summer, I leave to Calicut next week for two whole weeks! Not as exciting as it sounds though, its for a college project and everyone is pretty much as 'blah' about it as I am. I don't know why, but lately I seem to be feeling a bit 'blah' about everything. I guess I'm in a 'blah' phase right now, which hopefully should pass, not that I don't completely enjoy sitting around and feeling sorry for myself. Its awesome fun. You should try it sometime!
Yes I get it. I shouldn't exactly try and use sarcasm to be funny, it comes out completely wrong and then it prompts me to type out a stupid explanation as to why I'm so bad at this. Kill me already!
Anyway, the fact that the time is 2:42 isn't exactly helping the funk that I seem to be in. So I'll catch you at the other end of today! Bye!
Saturday, April 26, 2008
Micro
I'm probably not gonna be around for the next couple of weeks, which is quite heartbreaking cause I happen to love this space and all you guys reading it. I'm gonna miss you'll.
If you miss me too, you can find me HERE!! Microblogging!
Yup, that's right..I'm on twitter, which is actually pretty great once you get the hang of it. Which I haven't happened to have gotten, by the way. I'm still trying to find my way, sniffing around the place like a pup in a new house. But, wait a sec, I can't be twittering and barking at the same time, can I? I would be like cat-dog (on cartoon network) then, except I wouldn't, cause I'd be bird-dog.
Shit, I'm so stressed.. I have no idea what I'm saying!
Ok..So, I'll see you guys on twitter, where you can catch the mini adventures of *drumroll*
BIRD-DOG!
If you miss me too, you can find me HERE!! Microblogging!
Yup, that's right..I'm on twitter, which is actually pretty great once you get the hang of it. Which I haven't happened to have gotten, by the way. I'm still trying to find my way, sniffing around the place like a pup in a new house. But, wait a sec, I can't be twittering and barking at the same time, can I? I would be like cat-dog (on cartoon network) then, except I wouldn't, cause I'd be bird-dog.
Shit, I'm so stressed.. I have no idea what I'm saying!
Ok..So, I'll see you guys on twitter, where you can catch the mini adventures of *drumroll*
BIRD-DOG!
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Like Magic
Whoa!
How cool was that disappearing act! I'm getting better and better at this everyday!
What, you don't believe I can magically disappear??
That's ridiculous!
Wait a sec, let me do it again!
.
.
.
.
So I put the black satin cloth over my head....
And whisper the magic words!
*Go finish your work you idiot, cause you know if you don't, you're gonna flunk this year!!*
And POOF...I'm gone!!
How cool was that disappearing act! I'm getting better and better at this everyday!
What, you don't believe I can magically disappear??
That's ridiculous!
Wait a sec, let me do it again!
.
.
.
.
So I put the black satin cloth over my head....
And whisper the magic words!
*Go finish your work you idiot, cause you know if you don't, you're gonna flunk this year!!*
And POOF...I'm gone!!
Sunday, April 06, 2008
Musical Musings
Because I couldn't come up with a cornier title!
Today, I feel like stealing. Told you I have a bad girl streak hidden somewhere in me.
Actually, I'm not stealing, nor am I 'wild' or 'bad' or however you want to put it.
Whoa..I think I feel the 'Drunk Writing Syndrome' setting in. For those of you who haven't a clue of what I'm saying, its what happens when you let your fingers go berserk on the keyboard, and as a result all that's coming out is a bunch of words that you had no clue were even in your head. Basically, its how you would write if you were piss drunk, except in this case, you're not. Yup, so that about sums it up.
What was I saying..Ya, so I'm merely borrowing a tag from a blog that I found today. I've seen this tag around in a couple of places, but had never actually gotten around to doing it, well you know, because of my other perpetually present syndrome, its called 'The Lazy Lemonade' syndrome. It think the name pretty much explains itself.
So, here are the rules of the tag
1. Put your iPod (or other source of music) on shuffle mode.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write the name of the song no matter what. No cheating!
Here goes nothing. And please, for the love of all things good and holy, don't judge me on my taste in music. Its about as fifty time as varied and weird as me. Maybe even a hundred.
"If someone says 'Is this okay?', you say?"
Going gets tough - Boyzone
Spot on, if things weren't okay, but I had no choice but to accept them, that's probably what I would say.
"What would best describe your personality?"
The Actor - Michael learns to Rock
Whoa, totally didn't expect that! Actually it is kind of true in a sense, you see, if there's something I've noticed, its that I can even be the person I am on my blog, in real life, and I can never be the person I am in real life, on my blog. The whole thing is pretty twisted. Wouldn't call it acting though.
"What do you like in a guy/girl?"
There's gotta be more to life - Stacie Orrico
Ha ha ha ha ha.....
"How do you feel today?"
Goodness Gracious Me - Peter sellers & Sophia Loren
Indeed.
"What is your life's purpose?"
I feel lonely - Sasha
Great! That just totally confirmed my borderline loner issues.
"What is your motto?"
Starts with Goodbye - Carrie Underwood
"Its sad, but sometimes, moving on with the rest of your life, Starts with goodbye."
Pretty damn appropriate I would say. I mean its all about getting over the crap that's presently eating your head, and moving on. You cannot progress if you can't find the strength to get over the fact that you just finished the last sip of coke in your house. You have to come to terms and remind yourself, that it isn't the end of the world.
"What do your friends think of you?"
Funkytown - Lipps Inc
That's what I think of them too. What a coincidence!
"What do you think of your parents?"
Girl - The Beatles
Absolutely unrelated. SO unrelated in fact, that I can't even seem to spin any crap to say about it.
"What do you think about very often?"
Chasing the Sun - The Calling
Its more like chasing the stars in my case. I really don't need to get tanned any further, I'm dark enough as it is.
"What is 2+2?"
You really got me - Sanjaya Malakar
Yes, sometimes I tend to space out and even basic arithmetic skills completely escape me.
"What do you think of your best friend?"
Tears in Heaven - Eric Clapton
If there's anywhere we both are going together, its probably hell!
"What do you think of the person you like?"
Seasons of Love - Rent OST
Hmmm.....
Hmmmmm.......
"What is your life story?"
Dare to Dream - Jo Dee Messina
Totally. Enough said.
"What do you want to be when you grow up?"
Corner of your Heart- Ingrid Michaelson
Be in the corner of someone's heart? Probably. But that's only among a ton of other things.
"What do you think when you see the person you like?"
Que Sera Sera - Connie Francis
Whatever will be, will be, I guess.
"What do your parents think of you?"
Thank You - Dido
Obviously! I mean, come on, I brought the light into their lives. Why wouldn't they thank me?! :P
"What will you dance to at your wedding?"
Wanted Dead or Alive - Jon Bon Jovi
O-Kay.
"What will they play at your funeral?"
Angel - Better than Ezra
Hit the jackpot on this one..didn't I? It also happens to be completely true, by the way. :) See? Isn't that the most angelic smile you've ever seen?!
"What is your hobby/interest?"
Lambada - Kaoma
Ha ha..that's a joke. Dancing in one thing that I've never been interested in, except when I'm safe in the brick walled confines of my bedroom, with only a full length mirror to laugh at my two left feet.
"What is your biggest secret?"
All That Jazz - Chicago OST
Obviously. It wouldn't exactly be a secret if it didn't have anything 'jazzy' about it.
"What do you think of your friends?"
I got you Babe - Sonny & Cher
I do! I got their backs.
"What should you post this as?"
Sippin on Barcadi Rum - Groove Connection
Sure feels like it!
Ok, I gotta go! But please people, do this tag!! Its so much fun. And when you'll do, leave the link in the comment box, so I can come over and make fun of your taste in music!
Kidding! :)
Happy Sunday evening!
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Today, I feel like stealing. Told you I have a bad girl streak hidden somewhere in me.
Actually, I'm not stealing, nor am I 'wild' or 'bad' or however you want to put it.
Whoa..I think I feel the 'Drunk Writing Syndrome' setting in. For those of you who haven't a clue of what I'm saying, its what happens when you let your fingers go berserk on the keyboard, and as a result all that's coming out is a bunch of words that you had no clue were even in your head. Basically, its how you would write if you were piss drunk, except in this case, you're not. Yup, so that about sums it up.
What was I saying..Ya, so I'm merely borrowing a tag from a blog that I found today. I've seen this tag around in a couple of places, but had never actually gotten around to doing it, well you know, because of my other perpetually present syndrome, its called 'The Lazy Lemonade' syndrome. It think the name pretty much explains itself.
So, here are the rules of the tag
1. Put your iPod (or other source of music) on shuffle mode.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write the name of the song no matter what. No cheating!
Here goes nothing. And please, for the love of all things good and holy, don't judge me on my taste in music. Its about as fifty time as varied and weird as me. Maybe even a hundred.
"If someone says 'Is this okay?', you say?"
Going gets tough - Boyzone
Spot on, if things weren't okay, but I had no choice but to accept them, that's probably what I would say.
"What would best describe your personality?"
The Actor - Michael learns to Rock
Whoa, totally didn't expect that! Actually it is kind of true in a sense, you see, if there's something I've noticed, its that I can even be the person I am on my blog, in real life, and I can never be the person I am in real life, on my blog. The whole thing is pretty twisted. Wouldn't call it acting though.
"What do you like in a guy/girl?"
There's gotta be more to life - Stacie Orrico
Ha ha ha ha ha.....
"How do you feel today?"
Goodness Gracious Me - Peter sellers & Sophia Loren
Indeed.
"What is your life's purpose?"
I feel lonely - Sasha
Great! That just totally confirmed my borderline loner issues.
"What is your motto?"
Starts with Goodbye - Carrie Underwood
"Its sad, but sometimes, moving on with the rest of your life, Starts with goodbye."
Pretty damn appropriate I would say. I mean its all about getting over the crap that's presently eating your head, and moving on. You cannot progress if you can't find the strength to get over the fact that you just finished the last sip of coke in your house. You have to come to terms and remind yourself, that it isn't the end of the world.
"What do your friends think of you?"
Funkytown - Lipps Inc
That's what I think of them too. What a coincidence!
"What do you think of your parents?"
Girl - The Beatles
Absolutely unrelated. SO unrelated in fact, that I can't even seem to spin any crap to say about it.
"What do you think about very often?"
Chasing the Sun - The Calling
Its more like chasing the stars in my case. I really don't need to get tanned any further, I'm dark enough as it is.
"What is 2+2?"
You really got me - Sanjaya Malakar
Yes, sometimes I tend to space out and even basic arithmetic skills completely escape me.
"What do you think of your best friend?"
Tears in Heaven - Eric Clapton
If there's anywhere we both are going together, its probably hell!
"What do you think of the person you like?"
Seasons of Love - Rent OST
Hmmm.....
Hmmmmm.......
"What is your life story?"
Dare to Dream - Jo Dee Messina
Totally. Enough said.
"What do you want to be when you grow up?"
Corner of your Heart- Ingrid Michaelson
Be in the corner of someone's heart? Probably. But that's only among a ton of other things.
"What do you think when you see the person you like?"
Que Sera Sera - Connie Francis
Whatever will be, will be, I guess.
"What do your parents think of you?"
Thank You - Dido
Obviously! I mean, come on, I brought the light into their lives. Why wouldn't they thank me?! :P
"What will you dance to at your wedding?"
Wanted Dead or Alive - Jon Bon Jovi
O-Kay.
"What will they play at your funeral?"
Angel - Better than Ezra
Hit the jackpot on this one..didn't I? It also happens to be completely true, by the way. :) See? Isn't that the most angelic smile you've ever seen?!
"What is your hobby/interest?"
Lambada - Kaoma
Ha ha..that's a joke. Dancing in one thing that I've never been interested in, except when I'm safe in the brick walled confines of my bedroom, with only a full length mirror to laugh at my two left feet.
"What is your biggest secret?"
All That Jazz - Chicago OST
Obviously. It wouldn't exactly be a secret if it didn't have anything 'jazzy' about it.
"What do you think of your friends?"
I got you Babe - Sonny & Cher
I do! I got their backs.
"What should you post this as?"
Sippin on Barcadi Rum - Groove Connection
Sure feels like it!
Ok, I gotta go! But please people, do this tag!! Its so much fun. And when you'll do, leave the link in the comment box, so I can come over and make fun of your taste in music!
Kidding! :)
Happy Sunday evening!
Thursday, April 03, 2008
blog party!!
Not exactly! Well, sort of, anyway.
Look who finally decided to grace her beloved blog with her presence!
Seriously, I need to get my life back on track here, laziness seems to be reigning over every little cell in my body. My life, in addition to being depressing is now turning chaotic, so chaotic in fact, that I can't seem to be able to find any balance anymore. Not that I was well balanced individual to begin with, but you know what I'm talking about, right?
Well, if you don't, then that's probably because this is the first time you're finding yourself here. To know a little more about my extremely unbalanced self, go read the archives of this blog. I'm sure they'll provide you a good insight into the utter and complete insanity that is me.
Anyway, what prompted me to post in the middle of my previously mentioned chaotic existence, is to tell all you guys that Chennai's gonna have its very own blogger meet!!
I don't hear any 'woo-hoo'ing or hooting!!
Whats wrong with you guys??
I said CHENNAI is gonna have its very own BLOGGER MEET!!
*Hears distant catcalls and imagines nerdy bloggers in the suburbs of madras pumping their fists in the air*
Yup, That's more like it!!
psst...Don't try to deny it, we bloggers are quite a nerdy bunch!
I can't wait for it! Its being organising by Indiblogger and is definitely bound to be good fun! Anyone reading here in Chennai, please get over to the site and register yourselves, right now! Yes of course I mean NOW!!
What're you waiting for?? GO!!
Check out some of the reviews of the earlier meets at Pune and Bangalore and also go look at the Indiblogger Flick group. Click on all the links and go crazy guys! :)
See you there!
Look who finally decided to grace her beloved blog with her presence!
Seriously, I need to get my life back on track here, laziness seems to be reigning over every little cell in my body. My life, in addition to being depressing is now turning chaotic, so chaotic in fact, that I can't seem to be able to find any balance anymore. Not that I was well balanced individual to begin with, but you know what I'm talking about, right?
Well, if you don't, then that's probably because this is the first time you're finding yourself here. To know a little more about my extremely unbalanced self, go read the archives of this blog. I'm sure they'll provide you a good insight into the utter and complete insanity that is me.
Anyway, what prompted me to post in the middle of my previously mentioned chaotic existence, is to tell all you guys that Chennai's gonna have its very own blogger meet!!
I don't hear any 'woo-hoo'ing or hooting!!
Whats wrong with you guys??
I said CHENNAI is gonna have its very own BLOGGER MEET!!
*Hears distant catcalls and imagines nerdy bloggers in the suburbs of madras pumping their fists in the air*
Yup, That's more like it!!
psst...Don't try to deny it, we bloggers are quite a nerdy bunch!
I can't wait for it! Its being organising by Indiblogger and is definitely bound to be good fun! Anyone reading here in Chennai, please get over to the site and register yourselves, right now! Yes of course I mean NOW!!
What're you waiting for?? GO!!
Check out some of the reviews of the earlier meets at Pune and Bangalore and also go look at the Indiblogger Flick group. Click on all the links and go crazy guys! :)
See you there!
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Shooting bullets!
I never know what I'm going to write about, until I coerce my fingers to do that rhythmical tapping jig that they do on the keyboard. It is usually quite a task..getting my fingers to do that rhythmically tapping jig. And while they're doing that, most often than not, I'm usually hoping that, what's coming out of them will at least be vaguely readable. Since I have nothing in particular to bore you with today, I figured I'd resort to the ever reliable bullets to give you an idea of the random happenings in my life.
Disclaimer: Reader will probably die a fatal death of boredom during the course of this post. If indeed found dead, I am in no way responsible for the remnants of his/her body. His/her soul of course, is probably already on its way to haunt me.
Disclaimer: Reader will probably die a fatal death of boredom during the course of this post. If indeed found dead, I am in no way responsible for the remnants of his/her body. His/her soul of course, is probably already on its way to haunt me.
- Last week I was in the car with my mother when she stopped abruptly in the middle of the road, I looked up from the label of the tissue box I was reading, only to catch a chicken cross the road. A chicken crossing a road. A CHICKEN CROSSING A ROAD!!
- Google reader happens to be my new best friend. I found her in November, and I've held her hand while walking around school everyday. Literally. Seriously, this tiny blurb does her absolutely no justice, she deserves a post of her own, which hopefully will find its way here sometime in the near future, if I can get off my lazy ass, that is. Translation: School being the Internet for people who didn't get it.
- Writing an 80 page project report on your internship in the middle of nowhere sure can zap all the energy out of you. Wait a sec, I got that wrong, I actually meant, writing 2.00078 % of an 80 page project report on your internship in the middle of nowhere sure can zap all the energy out of you.
- Last night I accidentally fell asleep at 9 pm, but got up at approximately 2:30 am and proceeded to sit on the internet for the next hour and a half. I can't believe I'm this addicted. When did this happen?!
- I gave up the three C's for lent, chocolate, coke and chips. Thank God, easter's coming, there's a tub of chocolate ice cream in the freezer that's just waiting to be devoured.
- My middle name is procrastination. seriously, I began this post sometime Thursday night!!
- I own two sand filled animals, that are a couple of some of my most prized possessions. In addition to my insanity and my zero sense of humor, that is. Their names are Lizzie the Lizard and Fiona the Frog, and I keep them next to my computer monitor at home. They actually are a lizard and a frog, but I find that when you suffix a title to a name, it makes it sound a tad grander. Yes, I know that 'the lizard' and 'the frog' aren't exactly titles.
- Just so you know, I have no clue what I'm typing out. For someone who's never ever gotten drunk in her life, I sure do a good job of acting it. Just wanted to make sure that we were clear on that.
Monday, March 17, 2008
1:31 am
I found something hilarious while stumbling around the web today. I haven't posted anything from in the internet in a while, so I thought this would be apt. Not in a religious context on anything, because trust me I'm not religiously biased and I don't mean to hurt anyone's religious sentiments, but its just apt for this site, not completely but sorta. And by 'sorta', I mean only halfway apt....Oh god, maybe I should shut up and post the damn thing already!
I almost squealed when I first saw it, the squeal was then followed by my very distinct and not to mention loud, trademark motor laugh. Don't ask me how it sounds, because then I'd have to demonstrate it, and if I do that, then I sure as hell will be the next laughing stock of the blogworld, which would be pretty ironic because everyone will be laughing at my laugh!
Seriously, I really surprise myself with the amount of crap I manage to cram into a single post. You'd think that if I was so intent on sounding this stupid, I'd at least try to space the stupidity out between a few posts, but no, here I am, on a quest to make my idiocy known to the whole world, or rather just the people who read this blog, who come to think of it, do mean the whole world to me. So again, I wanna thank you guys for 'you know what', you'll are awesome, each and every single one of you. There'll be cupcakes in the mail for you'll. Well not in reality anyway, but in my mind. That counts for something, right?
I almost squealed when I first saw it, the squeal was then followed by my very distinct and not to mention loud, trademark motor laugh. Don't ask me how it sounds, because then I'd have to demonstrate it, and if I do that, then I sure as hell will be the next laughing stock of the blogworld, which would be pretty ironic because everyone will be laughing at my laugh!Seriously, I really surprise myself with the amount of crap I manage to cram into a single post. You'd think that if I was so intent on sounding this stupid, I'd at least try to space the stupidity out between a few posts, but no, here I am, on a quest to make my idiocy known to the whole world, or rather just the people who read this blog, who come to think of it, do mean the whole world to me. So again, I wanna thank you guys for 'you know what', you'll are awesome, each and every single one of you. There'll be cupcakes in the mail for you'll. Well not in reality anyway, but in my mind. That counts for something, right?
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
woo hoo
Its at this juncture, where I wonder, how things most often than not, (TOUCH WOOD) go right for me! If I was jumping up and down and smiling so hard that I was afraid that my face was gonna crack, the last time, this time I'm completely beyond blown away..trust me..I've been blown away so far, that the world just look like a tiny blue spec to me! Like Phoebe's tattoo.
Should I just say thank you, or should I come find each your houses individually to give you a big hug?! I'm torn, I don't know what to do! If I could, I would bake each of you guys individual little cupcakes with your initials in chocolate sprinkles. But unfortunately, my paltry student allowance will not permit it.
Shit, look at me, I came here to give my Oscar-like acceptance speech but I find myself, rambling on, gibberish.
Anyway, thank you guys, from the bottom of my heart. This award is completely undeserving and I know it, but when good things happen to you, you can't help but embrace them, forget embracing them..I'm probably gonna hug this moment and hold on to it for all eternity.
Should I just say thank you, or should I come find each your houses individually to give you a big hug?! I'm torn, I don't know what to do! If I could, I would bake each of you guys individual little cupcakes with your initials in chocolate sprinkles. But unfortunately, my paltry student allowance will not permit it.Shit, look at me, I came here to give my Oscar-like acceptance speech but I find myself, rambling on, gibberish.
Anyway, thank you guys, from the bottom of my heart. This award is completely undeserving and I know it, but when good things happen to you, you can't help but embrace them, forget embracing them..I'm probably gonna hug this moment and hold on to it for all eternity.
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
19
The clock reads 1:53am and the date is the 5th of march, which coincidentally happens to the day I was born. Nineteen whole years ago.
I can't believe I'm on the threshold of adulthood. What's even more unbelievable is the fact that I just used the phrase 'threshold of adulthood'. Am I really getting that old?
The birthday feeling still hasn't set in as yet for some reason. I don't feel anything except a weird numbness, like its just another day, but somehow is different, just not in a very significant way. If the previous sentence sounded like crap to you, then it probably is. Like I said I'm so numb, I can't even fell the keys while typing this out, so it probably is just a load of rubbish.
I reread what I 'd just written, and they sound like the words of an emotionless cynic, which I am not, most of the time at least. I think the time of the day (or the night in this case) does that to you. So it isn't exactly my fault. That's my latest trick, by the way, blaming stuff on the time. Is it working?
If by now you're wondering why you're still here, reading the words of a psychotic 'almost adult', I don't blame you. But please, stay and wish me a Happy Birthday, I'm sure it'll make my day however cynical I may seem.
I can't believe I'm on the threshold of adulthood. What's even more unbelievable is the fact that I just used the phrase 'threshold of adulthood'. Am I really getting that old?
The birthday feeling still hasn't set in as yet for some reason. I don't feel anything except a weird numbness, like its just another day, but somehow is different, just not in a very significant way. If the previous sentence sounded like crap to you, then it probably is. Like I said I'm so numb, I can't even fell the keys while typing this out, so it probably is just a load of rubbish.
I reread what I 'd just written, and they sound like the words of an emotionless cynic, which I am not, most of the time at least. I think the time of the day (or the night in this case) does that to you. So it isn't exactly my fault. That's my latest trick, by the way, blaming stuff on the time. Is it working?
If by now you're wondering why you're still here, reading the words of a psychotic 'almost adult', I don't blame you. But please, stay and wish me a Happy Birthday, I'm sure it'll make my day however cynical I may seem.
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