Blah doesn't even begin to cover it.

I have been avoiding this compose page like a plague because I fear that I may have lost that single ounce of writing capability that I once had.

For the first time in my life, I feel like I have nothing to say.

Absolutely nothing.

Zero.

Zip.

Zilch.

Nada.

There are a lot of things on my mind, but trying to push them out of that hole in my face is proving to be quite a task.

So I'm going to leave it at that now, and hope that I get out of this funk in the near future.

Keep your fingers crossed.

ps: Just checked my stats and noticed that someone from the 'Fashion Institute of Technology', was on this site..whoever you are, if you do come back here and see this, can you please get in touch with me. Thanks a ton!

Micro

I'm probably not gonna be around for the next couple of weeks, which is quite heartbreaking cause I happen to love this space and all you guys reading it. I'm gonna miss you'll.

If you miss me too, you can find me HERE!! Microblogging!

Yup, that's right..I'm on twitter, which is actually pretty great once you get the hang of it. Which I haven't happened to have gotten, by the way. I'm still trying to find my way, sniffing around the place like a pup in a new house. But, wait a sec, I can't be twittering and barking at the same time, can I? I would be like cat-dog (on cartoon network) then, except I wouldn't, cause I'd be bird-dog.

Shit, I'm so stressed.. I have no idea what I'm saying!

Ok..So, I'll see you guys on twitter, where you can catch the mini adventures of *drumroll*
BIRD-DOG!

Like Magic

Whoa!

How cool was that disappearing act! I'm getting better and better at this everyday!

What, you don't believe I can magically disappear??

That's ridiculous!

Wait a sec, let me do it again!
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So I put the black satin cloth over my head....

And whisper the magic words!

*Go finish your work you idiot, cause you know if you don't, you're gonna flunk this year!!*

And POOF...I'm gone!!

middle of where?

Sitting in a random internet centre, at an age old computer with sweat pouring down my back, in an awfully humid town in the middle of nowhere is not a fun way to write a post. I agree that if its a town, then its probably not in the middle of nowhere, but I'm sure you know what I'm talking about.

Got here yesterday morning, and have been on my toes ever since. Literally. (My calf muscles are actually paining). I'm on a two week intership in the above mentioned 'middle-of-nowhere' town and so far its been a dusty dreary journey. Two days doesn't exactly count as a jorney but this happens top be my blog and I happen to like being a drama queen. So to illustrate the above piont...its been TWO WHOLE HORRIBLE DAYS IN A DUSTY AND DREARY "MIDDLE-OF-NOWHERE' TOWN!

I've been trying to catch up with the rest of the world for the past fifty five minutes and I'm afraid one hour at the net centre is all my lowly student allowanance will allow. So I'll have to leave you at this and come back and finish this story sometime later. Sometime later means sometime when i'm not on my toes, which is actually quite ironic because this happens to be quite a 'dead-ish' town. Speaking of it being a 'dead-ish' town, did I also mention that it is in the middle of nowhere?

!!!!!!

Am I over this blog??

Like seriously, why do I not feel the urge to constantly type out whatever I'm thinking ,like I used to?!?

Why???! Why God, WHY???!!!! You cannot do this to me!!!


Shit I really need to spend more time on the internet! This unforeseen internet 'away' time is literally killing me!!

I'm back ( but not quite!)

Photographic proof that the nightmare is well and truly over!!

The whiner needs some time to catch her breath after the week that she has had..but will be back in action after copious amounts of sleep and food and all the other things that she has missed, and that includes 325123.789 hours of TV!!

Just one!

Did I just find two spare minutes from my 'mind-bogglingly work filled'* day to come and post one sentence on my blog?

Looks like I did!

*Yes I realize that, that isn't a word! I'm not that stupid.

NaBloPo Huh??!! (Post 9)

Have I royally failed at this or what?!!

But for once I'm gonna have to forgive myself because you truly do not know what the phrase 'Unbelievably busy' is until you have led 5 minutes of my life! I kid you not people, these past two weeks have been hell..hardest I've ever worked in my life I think! And what a coincedence that I happen to have a few hours free on the last day of the month to post 'Post 9' instead of what was supposed to be 'Post 30'. Ordinarily I would be hanging my head in shame, but the circumstances have been such that giving myself this little break has helped me realize a lot of stuff. Number one being..Don't try to force writing (It just doesn't happen), Don't stress yourself out over not being able to write (Its a waste of time and you probably will end up being more frustrated) and number three..If you genuinely don't have time, don't push yourself (you invariably will fall asleep on the keyboard and end up drooling all over it!).

In other news Ish from Dead End started a review blog, and I was totally honoured to be the first person on his list. The review came out a couple of days back and had me jumping up and down for a few minutes. Head over there right now and tell him what a good job he's doing!! And while you're there, sign up if you dare! ;)
Ooh..and he also gave me this nifty little 'Approved badge'..now come on, everyone needs one of these cool things..so get over there quick and sign up!

Since we are talking about reviews, another one of mine came out a couple of month's ago at JackFactor. Too bad Jack stopped doing reviews, but now we have Ish so no need to fret, all you people who are looking for the truth about your blogs.

Anyway just dropped by to see if I could still write, cause I was seriously doubting it! Will be back in a couple of days..3 exams, one jury and a 8 submissions to go. See you guys on the other end of the whirlwind that will be next week!

A year and 3 days old!

Only I would think that the 24th of September is actually the 23th of September and realize only on the 25th of September which happens to be two whole days ago!

I cant believe I missed my first blogiversary!! It serves me right though..I've been a bad bad lurker these past few weeks! A year in the blogosphere already! I'm gonna go the cliched way as say that it feels like just yesterday, because its true..it does feel like just yesterday. This also probably has to have been the most eventful year as well. So much has happened in the span of this one year that trying to encompass it all in one post would definitely not do it justice, so its definitely the lazy me who's talking when I say that I'm not even going to try!

Work has been all consuming of late and is truly terrible. College is seriously draining the shit outta me. Is it weird that I feel like an over worked sloth on a daily basis?! Yes, I'm sure that it is obvious that I'm beyond fed up, which is actually pretty ironic, because I haven't even grazed the upper layer of the obscene amount of work that lies in front of me. There are just too many distractions around. Not that I'm complaining or anything.

The blogability of the crap that is going on in my life is at an all time low, so for once, I have nothing to talk about. How exactly is this possible? A couple of weeks away from this space and even that single drop of writing ability that I had in my body seems to have completely evaporated!

Yes, I am aware that I am a whiner in addition to being a big time slacker!

Ugh, I just went back to my first post and I feel like such an idiot! Isn't it funny how we all started out in the blog world with no expectations,nothing in mind and suddenly a year later, we see ourselves looking back and realizing what a long way we've come and how many awesome
friends we've made on our way.

Friends whom we've never met, friends whom we've never spoken to, but friends whom we care so much about that our day is incomplete until we go see what they're up to. Its funny, though I've never met any of you guys I somehow feel that unique intangible bond that we share. The bond that makes it ok to know your secrets, and obviously that bond that makes it ok for me to tell you mine. The blogging community is truly one of a kind, and you have no idea how grateful I am to be a part of it. I don't know how many people I've recommending blogging to in this past year and to think just a year ago I had little or clue about what it was!

There's this song called ' A Lifetime' that I discovered last year just around this time, and every time I listen to that song it takes me back to those first few months when I started blogging and I have to say that it really is an awesome feeling, although the song is not even remotely connected to blogging, or writing or whatever...every time I listen to it..its like it transports me back to that time, probably because I was listening to it 24/7 for those first few months.

Click on the play button and listen to it..I promise you'll love it! You'll love it so much that you'll probably want to come all the way to Chennai and hug me because I just introduced you to the awesomeness that is 'Better Than Ezra'!

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Or watch it here!

Anyway..I think I have to go now and sit on my work like a chicken hoping that it'll magically hatch one day and out will come as A's on my report card.

Toodles!!

boo (its a series..refer to previous post)

Resolutions!! Smesolutions!! Why on earth did I think that I could keep one of those??!
Seriously..You'd think that after 18 years, 5 months and 18 days of being my lazy little self, I would have figured that one out!

Actually, for once it isn't because of my eternal laziness that I haven't been posting..rather its because of the constant agony and pain caused by my not so mundane college existence. Whoever said that you get used to it after a year totally didn't know what they were talking about! Ok, so maybe isn't as hard as the first year but it still is pretty hard! Ahhh...April 2010...how I wait for for your arrival! Ok..I'm gonna cut the drama queen speech short for you're benefit, I'm sure that after traversing a number of blogs to finally get to this one..this isn't something you want to be reading.

Winter is just starting out in Chennai..well, for people who've never lived here, you'd think that its still summer but people who've lived their entire lives in this city (like me) would know that this is our winter. I don't think we're actually authorized to call it winter..its supposed to be the monsoon season but since this is my blog I'll call it whatever I want! That seems fair, right? Anyway..I think I've mentioned the fact that I absolutely, completely and totally despise rain, so this weather is totally pissing me off. Being bundled up in a red sweater, without the fan with 8 million mosquitoes feasting on your ankles isn't exactly my idea of fun! To add to that..getting drenched every time you step out the door or being splashed with the dirty water that floods the roads by almost every single arrogant biker isn't a ball either! Give me 43°C temperature anyday!

I've begun to notice that my post aren't every topic specific of recent. This for some reason upsets me. Does this mean that I'm not able to channel my thoughts anymore?! Or does this just mean that I have too much going on and not enough time to put it down and hence I'm forced to write about certain things in little spurts of randomness. Whatever the reason might be..this is all you're getting for the next well, how many ever years..or until I make enough money for the Lemonade "removal of phsyco brain' surgery. Anyone care to contribute?

Aaarggh..!!!!

Is it abnormal to want to be alone..??!! I mean come on..all I'm asking for is just a little peace and quiet..is it wrong to NOT want to go out and have fun every single day..is it utterly and completely preposterous that a teenage girl enjoys sitting at home,doing her own thing...is it antisocial..is it weird..is it too strange or too odd or too peculiar...doesn't anybody understand that sometimes a girl just needs some time for herself and not have it interpreted as her being indifferent and selfish..??!!

Am i pissed..?? You guessed right..!!

PS: And for those of you who think that I am all the above adjectives..hold the comments,please.

slacker blogger..!

I don't know why..but I just keep putting off finishing a post that I started almost 10 days ago..!! I have no clue what's up with me...

Bah..!!! I hate being a SLACKER BLOGGER...!!!

its time for a new me....*sad face*

I'm pretty pissed right now...a tad too many people know about this blog and that kinda scares me..too many people in my family that is...so I think its time for a change.(and we all know how much I love change now,don't we..???!!!) I cant leave this the way it is..I started this blog as a place to vent..and if not to vent...a secret place where i could put everything that i didn't want to tell anyone else..my hopes,my dreams,my fears,my deepest darkest feelings...(ok ok..lets not get ahead of ourselves...lol...none of my secrets are either deep or dark so I actually dont have anything to worry about..but still i cant help but feel very very irritated and not to mention that feeling you feel when your privacy is invaded..sorry cant think up of any better words to describe my emotions right now...I'm too pissed off,remember..??) Anyway...I'm turning 18 on Monday and i guess its a good time for a change...but the thing is..i just started getting into the feel of this template..and i worked sooo hard on it...*whining* and i don't have the heart to let go of it..but well..what has to be done,has to be done i guess..anyway...starting next week (hopefully..if i stop being lazy that is) my blog will have a whole new look..new name..new everything..Im wondering if i should change my name too..I guess my effort to be completely and totally anonymous was in vain...hopefully my next attempt at anonymity runs its course of at least 10 years (ya right,like that going to happen..??!!) Anyway..cant hurt to try,can it....

Any suggestions for the new 'me'...???

nervousness,hyperness and my perpetual madness!!!

Its been a day of nervousness,hyperness and my all time perpetual madness...got up at 6.30(went to sleep at 4.30 last nite) and ran to college..to go catch the largest board in class for my display...had a jury...which was supposed to start at 9 but as usual, my college with their 'i-don't-give-a-rat's-ass-about-time'attitude prevailed yet again,which wasn't much of a suprise really ,started promptly an hour late...so there were like 9 people in the same session as me(thank god my parents were sensible enough to have named me with a name that starts with an 'a'..cause im sure if it were any further in the line of alphabets..i would have surely bitten up my fingers and not to mention my toes from the shitty tension that i have to go through each and every time m faced with an exam)...god..where was i??? ah..ya..9 people in the same session as me..and i swear the members of the jury kept us each inside drilling us not for less than thirty minutes each..and as usual i had to be one of the last few..the third last to be precise in the line of torture that was awaiting us...so anyway,i go in..and this guy asks me to explain one sheet which i think i have hone my best in..so automatically i look to the the board..but then he's like no..not from the board but from the table(i mean hello..!!! the whole point of putting things up on the bloody board is to show off your good stuff..!!!)..so anyway..i picked one..and mumbled and fumbled and tried to convince him that i knew what i was talking about..!!! then they move on to my posters(which you can see on the far right)...and this one guy is like 'it looks like these three posters have been done by three different people'..and im like mortified(i mean what the hell is the trying to suggest...well..i know what you were suggesting you ass)hence,i give him this look and ask him if he wanted to see my sketches..he politely refuses..like as if i was offering him a freaking cup of english tea and a cream scone..!!! so then,they go on about the posters,checking and cross checking if i knew what i was doing...and finally this female looks at one of the posters(the last one on the right) and says it looked psychedelic to her...!!! so i was like..ma'am its not supposed to be..its supposed to attract kids(since its an ad for a kids summer art camp)..so,anyway..she went from psychedelic to jamacian to african and then the jury members and i surprisingly started a discussion on the invasions of africa...dont even ask..!!! anyway..i was sooooooooooo glad when it was over..hope they dont flunk me for some of the cheeky remarks i made(i meant for them to be sweet and endearing but god knows how they took it...!!)....as i was saying..its been a day of nervousness,hyperness and madness(pre-jury) and also a day of the never-ending laziness(post-jury)that just seems to be a part of me that im sure i'll never be able to shrug off unless some serious measures are taken(he he..which we all know will never happen...atleast not in this lifetime)............

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my poor blog has been rotting for a week now..jus haven't had the energy to put up a post..sleepness nights and work-filled days got the best of me..my life is mess...seriously don't feel like dealing with it....just finished with a jury..hope i dont flunk...been so disconnected with the world for the past few days....hmmmmmmmm..no words right now..so i'll jus put up another post tommorow..ta for now....

aaahhhhh...my brains are clogging..!!!

my brains are clogging..they really are..!!! i've got so much of work,n i have no clue where to start..college is gettin really hectic and i cant take it anymore...!!! anyway..enough talk about the dreadliness(is that even a word??!!!) that is my life...!!! moving on...i think writer's block has finally got to me(not that im much of a writer) but my fingers just dont seem to be moving over the keyboard as deftly as they used to..anyway,think i'll jus save my energy...enough of this random crap for today....

This is so exciting..!!

ah..i jus wrote my first post a few hours back..n i came online now to find that i actually had one profile view...!!!! yay...!! whoever u are..hope u liked it. m on a ten day break rite now...so ill probably be sitting online the whole time now. this blogger thing is so new to me....its gonna take some getting used to...but m tellin myself,tat i will master the art of blogging or whatever its called in a few days...today has been a really really sleepy day ..each time i pick up my book...i find myself dozing..and its so damn irritating.!! i think college work is really gettin to my head...its hols and all i can think about is if i have some work to finish...(by the way,tats cause i usually have like a ton load of work every evening...!! its not funny how much of work they load us with..!!!) This is so damn ironic..10 whole days without any work...and that is all i can think about..anyway..m sure that this blog will help keep my mind off college...for a while atleast....until next time....whic i guess will probably be in a few hours) lol.....