Night after night, its getting harder to write,
Staring at a blank screen is never fun,
Even when I try with scratchy graphite,
I cant seem to forget my other worries,
That conveniently weigh more than a ton!
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Monday, November 19, 2007
Post 7 - Squishy
There's something about squishing your toes in mud, that's very therapeutic. And in case you were wondering, yes that is white nail polish and yes that is my extremely manly left foot!
Friday, November 16, 2007
Post 6 - jame loke
Sitting in the middle of a class in the computer lab.
HER: Wanna hear a joke?
ME: Sure, its been ages since I've heard a proper joke. But of course knowing me I'll laugh even if it happens to be the lamest joke on the planet.
HER: Ok, you wanna hear it or not?
ME: tell me, tell me!!
HER: So once there was this tiger and this hippo, who lived in the jungle. One day, the tiger killed a goat and the hippo happened to witness it. So the tiger went to find the hippo to persuade him not to tell anyone.
ME: But why? The tigers a tiger. I'm sure it can do whatever it wants, since when does it have to answer to or be scared of a hippo?!
HER: Well, they apparently had some deal in the jungle or something. Pah let me finish no, idiot!
ME: Ok, sorry, tell!
HER: So the tiger finds the hippo and begs him not to tell the others in the jugle, but the hippo refuses to. So the tiger asks him why? And what do you think the hippo said?
ME: What?
HER: Because HIPS DON"T LIE!!!
Please tell me, I'm not the only one who laughed so hard that I almost peed in my pants!
Yes, and I'm also aware that this post is a testament to the fact that my level of humor is so terribly poor that I will end up laughing for the lamest jokes on the planet and also that I'm an extremely annoying person. Don't you think?
HER: Wanna hear a joke?
ME: Sure, its been ages since I've heard a proper joke. But of course knowing me I'll laugh even if it happens to be the lamest joke on the planet.
HER: Ok, you wanna hear it or not?
ME: tell me, tell me!!
HER: So once there was this tiger and this hippo, who lived in the jungle. One day, the tiger killed a goat and the hippo happened to witness it. So the tiger went to find the hippo to persuade him not to tell anyone.
ME: But why? The tigers a tiger. I'm sure it can do whatever it wants, since when does it have to answer to or be scared of a hippo?!
HER: Well, they apparently had some deal in the jungle or something. Pah let me finish no, idiot!
ME: Ok, sorry, tell!
HER: So the tiger finds the hippo and begs him not to tell the others in the jugle, but the hippo refuses to. So the tiger asks him why? And what do you think the hippo said?
ME: What?
HER: Because HIPS DON"T LIE!!!
Please tell me, I'm not the only one who laughed so hard that I almost peed in my pants!
Yes, and I'm also aware that this post is a testament to the fact that my level of humor is so terribly poor that I will end up laughing for the lamest jokes on the planet and also that I'm an extremely annoying person. Don't you think?
Thursday, November 15, 2007
Post 5 - That twisted imperfect way..
You know there are times in your life when you just look around and realize how lucky you are. Like seriously, things may not be conventionally perfect , but they are perfect in that 'twisted imperfect' way they are....
....And then you remember that this isn't going to last forever, hell its not even going to last long enough for you to completely appreciate it. I've noticed that the whole point of life are those little bouts of happiness that we so ardently strive towards. When things are hard, you do whatever you can to make them all right, so ultimately you can be happy. I mean whatever you're in pursuit of…money, material gain, if you're looking for something emotionally, if you're looking to yourself for answers, looking for another person..whatever it is..happiness is the ultimate thing we're all looking for. And when what you're looking for happens...that tiny sense of satisfaction, that smile on someone's face, that tear of joy on someone's cheek, is obviously the root of that happiness that you experience. So as I was saying, we look for happiness and when we find it, we cannot hold onto it, however much we want to and however hard we try. Eventually something in our lives has to go wrong again and things are back to the sad, annoying, depressing way they were earlier and then before you know it, you're back to square one..trying to make everything all better again. But don't worry cause happiness is just round the corner, the only difference is..its either a long or a short street before that turn each time.
I'm the kind of person who for happiness in the future. Whenever I want to be happy..I try looking into the future and imagining things being the way I've always imagined them to be. But the truth is, I think of the future so much that sometimes I forget about the present. This reminds of some poem we learnt in school with the lamb or a bird or someone dying or something. Isn't it amazing how quickly we forget things?! I could have swore I knew that poem by heart and now I don't even remember its name!
I like nights like these, when I'm sitting and don't have to force the words to come out of the ends of my fingertips, listing to mellow music and trying to figure out what this mystery called life is about. I've been pretty unsuccessful in the past and I don't ever think I'll figure it out but it doesn't hurt to imagine that you know the whole purpose of existence. And not just mine, anyone's for that matter. Right now things in my life are perfect..the twisted imperfect I was talking about earlier. I'm at this point where I'm so happy with the way things are going, that I cant help but wonder what will be the thing will be that'll ruin it this time. I'll admit that I'm a pessimist but come on you've got to admit that happiness is never constant..it comes as and when it pleases to remind u of the point if life, to remind you not to give up, to fight for that next little nano second of happiness because, lets face it, it's the only thing that keep us going.
....And then you remember that this isn't going to last forever, hell its not even going to last long enough for you to completely appreciate it. I've noticed that the whole point of life are those little bouts of happiness that we so ardently strive towards. When things are hard, you do whatever you can to make them all right, so ultimately you can be happy. I mean whatever you're in pursuit of…money, material gain, if you're looking for something emotionally, if you're looking to yourself for answers, looking for another person..whatever it is..happiness is the ultimate thing we're all looking for. And when what you're looking for happens...that tiny sense of satisfaction, that smile on someone's face, that tear of joy on someone's cheek, is obviously the root of that happiness that you experience. So as I was saying, we look for happiness and when we find it, we cannot hold onto it, however much we want to and however hard we try. Eventually something in our lives has to go wrong again and things are back to the sad, annoying, depressing way they were earlier and then before you know it, you're back to square one..trying to make everything all better again. But don't worry cause happiness is just round the corner, the only difference is..its either a long or a short street before that turn each time.
I'm the kind of person who for happiness in the future. Whenever I want to be happy..I try looking into the future and imagining things being the way I've always imagined them to be. But the truth is, I think of the future so much that sometimes I forget about the present. This reminds of some poem we learnt in school with the lamb or a bird or someone dying or something. Isn't it amazing how quickly we forget things?! I could have swore I knew that poem by heart and now I don't even remember its name!
I like nights like these, when I'm sitting and don't have to force the words to come out of the ends of my fingertips, listing to mellow music and trying to figure out what this mystery called life is about. I've been pretty unsuccessful in the past and I don't ever think I'll figure it out but it doesn't hurt to imagine that you know the whole purpose of existence. And not just mine, anyone's for that matter. Right now things in my life are perfect..the twisted imperfect I was talking about earlier. I'm at this point where I'm so happy with the way things are going, that I cant help but wonder what will be the thing will be that'll ruin it this time. I'll admit that I'm a pessimist but come on you've got to admit that happiness is never constant..it comes as and when it pleases to remind u of the point if life, to remind you not to give up, to fight for that next little nano second of happiness because, lets face it, it's the only thing that keep us going.
Thursday, November 08, 2007
Post 4 - Lemon Sparkle
OKAY. MY BLOG. My RULES. Right? Right?!
Notice how the title says post 4 even though its day 8? well I'm changing the rules a little. Instead of trying to post once everyday which I clearly failed in doing, owing to my busy busy schedule (or so I like to think) I'm gonna make it 30 posts in thirty days, anytime I want. I think this makes the whole thing better as I'll be able to post whenever I want, keeping in mind the goal plus I also wont be forced to crank out readable material everyday which by the way is a lot harder than I initially thought it would be.
Days have been hectic, hectic, hectic. Even saying the word three times does not emphasize it enough.! However the past few days have been some of the best ever! Whoever thought that sitting outside in the hot sun was not fun, must be mad! You probably think I'm psycho at this point but thats ok.
Its Diwali today and I can hear the various bombs with all their fancy names and exorbitant prices explode. Gosh..some people seriously do have the knack of burning cash. No, I'm not against crackers..I mean I'd give almost anything to watch the fireworks display at Disneyland but spend your cash on bombs, now come on..that's just an unforgivable waste of money. When i was younger I was pretty afraid of crackers, the only thing I'd buy for Diwali was a box of Sparklers that I'd light in my balcony. The only thing that I liked about them was the way you could swish your hand around and write your name with it. That bit I thing was the best thing about Diwali. Well I'm not Hindu so there wasn't any religious affinity to the festival either so I guess that's as exciting and magical as Diwali could get for me!
Anyway..Happy Diwali all! Hope you guys have a wonderful day. And don't buy bombs, they really aren't something we should be teaching the kids, no wonder the world is in the state it is, what with people thinking bombs are fun and all!
PS: Don't you think the title was just genius. Got you to read this frightfully boring post anyway, didn't it?! ;)
Notice how the title says post 4 even though its day 8? well I'm changing the rules a little. Instead of trying to post once everyday which I clearly failed in doing, owing to my busy busy schedule (or so I like to think) I'm gonna make it 30 posts in thirty days, anytime I want. I think this makes the whole thing better as I'll be able to post whenever I want, keeping in mind the goal plus I also wont be forced to crank out readable material everyday which by the way is a lot harder than I initially thought it would be.
Days have been hectic, hectic, hectic. Even saying the word three times does not emphasize it enough.! However the past few days have been some of the best ever! Whoever thought that sitting outside in the hot sun was not fun, must be mad! You probably think I'm psycho at this point but thats ok.
Its Diwali today and I can hear the various bombs with all their fancy names and exorbitant prices explode. Gosh..some people seriously do have the knack of burning cash. No, I'm not against crackers..I mean I'd give almost anything to watch the fireworks display at Disneyland but spend your cash on bombs, now come on..that's just an unforgivable waste of money. When i was younger I was pretty afraid of crackers, the only thing I'd buy for Diwali was a box of Sparklers that I'd light in my balcony. The only thing that I liked about them was the way you could swish your hand around and write your name with it. That bit I thing was the best thing about Diwali. Well I'm not Hindu so there wasn't any religious affinity to the festival either so I guess that's as exciting and magical as Diwali could get for me!
Anyway..Happy Diwali all! Hope you guys have a wonderful day. And don't buy bombs, they really aren't something we should be teaching the kids, no wonder the world is in the state it is, what with people thinking bombs are fun and all!
PS: Don't you think the title was just genius. Got you to read this frightfully boring post anyway, didn't it?! ;)
Saturday, November 03, 2007
Day 3 - pouts are in, aren't they?
I woke up this morning with a swollen lip - Angelina Jolie style!
I'm either allergic to some tablet or the ants really really like me!
I feel like pouty Miss Pouterson and it does not feel right.
Enough said!
I'm either allergic to some tablet or the ants really really like me!
I feel like pouty Miss Pouterson and it does not feel right.
Enough said!
Friday, November 02, 2007
Day 2 - I am the strongest!! (not my daddy)
Today I did something important, I was something I haven't been in a while.
I was strong.
No, not 'strong' strong, the other strong. Mentally strong.
As a kid there were points in my life where I had to be strong and I was, but in the recent past I've noticed that I just refuse to hold up and whine instead which is weird because aren't you supposed to get stronger as you grow old and not turn the exact opposite?!
But guess what happened today, I turned the tables all by myself! Me and another friend of mine were paired up in college for this assignment. A pretty huge one, which included a gazillion hours of work. Anyway we started it off the other day and pulled it open again today to continue it. But when we did, we realized that it was completely ruined. (I'm not giving away what the work was in order to maintain at least some of my dwindling anonymity on this blog) When we did open it up today , we found that it was totally and completely destroyed. My partner for this assignment is incredibly whiny, sometimes worse than me, which is definitely a bad place to be in, because if there ever was an award for "The Most Exasperating and not to mention Annoying Whiner", there pretty much would be nothing between me and that honor! Anyway, we saw the damage that had been done, so we set about trying to make it right. A few wasted hours later we realized what we were doing was in complete vain..I was ready to cry by then. I was on the brink of tearing up with my partner for the assignment started losing it. What I normally would have done is started crying and then both of us would have just sat there crying our hearts out, at the loss of a few days work. But what I did instead was stop those tears from falling and shout out at my partner to stop whining. (Yes I advocate tough love, it always works!) and amazingly she stopped whining, which I was really thankful for, because if she had continued, I'm pretty sure I'd have completely lost it and ended up flunking and having to repeat the entire year again!!
I know that this isn't exactly a big deal, but it made me feel so good, that I just had to put it up here. That and the fact that its only the second day and I'm already running out of stuff to talk about!!
I was strong.
No, not 'strong' strong, the other strong. Mentally strong.
As a kid there were points in my life where I had to be strong and I was, but in the recent past I've noticed that I just refuse to hold up and whine instead which is weird because aren't you supposed to get stronger as you grow old and not turn the exact opposite?!
But guess what happened today, I turned the tables all by myself! Me and another friend of mine were paired up in college for this assignment. A pretty huge one, which included a gazillion hours of work. Anyway we started it off the other day and pulled it open again today to continue it. But when we did, we realized that it was completely ruined. (I'm not giving away what the work was in order to maintain at least some of my dwindling anonymity on this blog) When we did open it up today , we found that it was totally and completely destroyed. My partner for this assignment is incredibly whiny, sometimes worse than me, which is definitely a bad place to be in, because if there ever was an award for "The Most Exasperating and not to mention Annoying Whiner", there pretty much would be nothing between me and that honor! Anyway, we saw the damage that had been done, so we set about trying to make it right. A few wasted hours later we realized what we were doing was in complete vain..I was ready to cry by then. I was on the brink of tearing up with my partner for the assignment started losing it. What I normally would have done is started crying and then both of us would have just sat there crying our hearts out, at the loss of a few days work. But what I did instead was stop those tears from falling and shout out at my partner to stop whining. (Yes I advocate tough love, it always works!) and amazingly she stopped whining, which I was really thankful for, because if she had continued, I'm pretty sure I'd have completely lost it and ended up flunking and having to repeat the entire year again!!
I know that this isn't exactly a big deal, but it made me feel so good, that I just had to put it up here. That and the fact that its only the second day and I'm already running out of stuff to talk about!!
Thursday, November 01, 2007
Day 1, The eleventh hour!
Ok NaBloPoMo thus begins. Whether this is a good thing or a bad thing is unknown as of this moment, you'll probably have to check this space fifteen days from now to know if I am just a big talker or if I'm actually going to stick this challenge out. This is a big deal in my book. My posts average at about 6 a month so this is like 5 times that number (Yes I do know math in case anyone was wondering!) so if I do succeed it'll be my biggest achievement in my year and two months of blogging! Ok now that I'm propping this whole thing up, I'm getting a tad nervous!
I'm gonna cheat though and use one of my favorite bloggers' Zoot's daily prompts to get myself through this period because I'm pretty sure that my mind isn't going to be in actual writing mode for the next month, so to start thing off with a bang, going with the first prompt of the season..What is something that I just realized that I cannot live without?
A couple of years back (read:exactly two years) my answer would have been completely different and if that particular object had not come into my life in the force that it did, my answer would have again been completely different. This object has changed so much about me. Changed the way I look at things, changed the way I see the world, even changed the way I see myself. Yes its the computer...yes I know its a bit weird but it is the truth. I can totally see you guys going like "Dude! Is she for real?!"
This little box of technology with its million circuits and all those other bits and pieces whose names I still don't know has taught me so much!! We didn't have a computer at home until two years ago but when it did come into my life everything changed and how I say its changed is because of blogging...as I've already mentioned before..blogging changed my life almost instantly and in a good way, I might add. I'm sure I couldn't live a day without these...so here's to blogging and blogs and the amazing little boxes they come in!!
PS: If there's anything you want to know about me or want me to write about, please let me know in the comment box. I could really use a few suggestions for blogging material! I'm open to any questions at all, so fire away! (Well expect for ones that question the amount of pink on this blog! I'm a girl so its pretty obvious that I have a thing for pink, isn't it?!)
I'm gonna cheat though and use one of my favorite bloggers' Zoot's daily prompts to get myself through this period because I'm pretty sure that my mind isn't going to be in actual writing mode for the next month, so to start thing off with a bang, going with the first prompt of the season..What is something that I just realized that I cannot live without?
A couple of years back (read:exactly two years) my answer would have been completely different and if that particular object had not come into my life in the force that it did, my answer would have again been completely different. This object has changed so much about me. Changed the way I look at things, changed the way I see the world, even changed the way I see myself. Yes its the computer...yes I know its a bit weird but it is the truth. I can totally see you guys going like "Dude! Is she for real?!"
This little box of technology with its million circuits and all those other bits and pieces whose names I still don't know has taught me so much!! We didn't have a computer at home until two years ago but when it did come into my life everything changed and how I say its changed is because of blogging...as I've already mentioned before..blogging changed my life almost instantly and in a good way, I might add. I'm sure I couldn't live a day without these...so here's to blogging and blogs and the amazing little boxes they come in!!
PS: If there's anything you want to know about me or want me to write about, please let me know in the comment box. I could really use a few suggestions for blogging material! I'm open to any questions at all, so fire away! (Well expect for ones that question the amount of pink on this blog! I'm a girl so its pretty obvious that I have a thing for pink, isn't it?!)
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
R.A.N.D.O.M
There seem to be a lot of things that have taken my fancy in the past few months and putting it down I thought would really be good material for the time capsule that is this blog. (Why else would I try to document so much of my life?!)
Knitting - If you're envisioning me sitting on a super comfy couch with balls of yarn at my feet, knitting away to glory, then you're pretty much spot on. We had a knitting module at college which when it first started was complete torture and believe me when I say torture. But slowly, as time went by I seemed to warm up to it and then realized that I was actually a lot more into it than I wanted to be. Guess who's the Martha Stewart of knitting??
TV - There's a lot of good crap going on, on TV these days. There was a point when there was absolutely nothing to watch but nowadays i'm able to fill up my evenings, which is a good thing as well as a bad thing cause there no time to do anything else being I'm too busy being a big fat couch potato!
For people who are bored and are looking for something to watch, here's the list of a few of the best shows going on.
Monday - 8 to10 - That 70's Show, Everybody Loves Raymond, According to Jim, Yes Dear. (Star World)
Tuesday - 10-11 - Brothers and Sisters (Star world), Top Design (AXN)
Wednesday - 9-10 - Ugly Betty (Star world), Top Chef (AXN)
Thursday - 8:30-9 - The Sketch show (Star World) (So good you'll pee in your pants laughing!!)
Friday - 9-10 - Gossip Girl (Zee Cafe) (About this blogger who calls herself gossip girl who posts all the juicy details of the teenage socialite royalty in New York)
That was to help you all get in couch potato mode so that I'm not the only one lazing around, becoming fat!
There's a lot more I want to say but let's save it shall we because I just went and did something incredibly stupid! The rather sporadic and infrequent posting on this blog lead me to sign up for NaBloPoMo...yeah,yeah I know that its called the National Blog Posting Month for a reason, and that one reason being that its just for the people of that particular nation..but who cares..if its on the world wide web then it means it can be used by anyone, anywhere!
So here I am promising to post every single day for the next thirty days! God help me! Or rather god help you because you'll will be the one's who'll have to tolerate my constant, insane randomness for the next thirty days!! So..better grab some booze and park yourselves cause this believe me you don't want to be sober for this long ride!
Knitting - If you're envisioning me sitting on a super comfy couch with balls of yarn at my feet, knitting away to glory, then you're pretty much spot on. We had a knitting module at college which when it first started was complete torture and believe me when I say torture. But slowly, as time went by I seemed to warm up to it and then realized that I was actually a lot more into it than I wanted to be. Guess who's the Martha Stewart of knitting??
TV - There's a lot of good crap going on, on TV these days. There was a point when there was absolutely nothing to watch but nowadays i'm able to fill up my evenings, which is a good thing as well as a bad thing cause there no time to do anything else being I'm too busy being a big fat couch potato!
For people who are bored and are looking for something to watch, here's the list of a few of the best shows going on.
Monday - 8 to10 - That 70's Show, Everybody Loves Raymond, According to Jim, Yes Dear. (Star World)
Tuesday - 10-11 - Brothers and Sisters (Star world), Top Design (AXN)
Wednesday - 9-10 - Ugly Betty (Star world), Top Chef (AXN)
Thursday - 8:30-9 - The Sketch show (Star World) (So good you'll pee in your pants laughing!!)
Friday - 9-10 - Gossip Girl (Zee Cafe) (About this blogger who calls herself gossip girl who posts all the juicy details of the teenage socialite royalty in New York)
That was to help you all get in couch potato mode so that I'm not the only one lazing around, becoming fat!
There's a lot more I want to say but let's save it shall we because I just went and did something incredibly stupid! The rather sporadic and infrequent posting on this blog lead me to sign up for NaBloPoMo...yeah,yeah I know that its called the National Blog Posting Month for a reason, and that one reason being that its just for the people of that particular nation..but who cares..if its on the world wide web then it means it can be used by anyone, anywhere!
So here I am promising to post every single day for the next thirty days! God help me! Or rather god help you because you'll will be the one's who'll have to tolerate my constant, insane randomness for the next thirty days!! So..better grab some booze and park yourselves cause this believe me you don't want to be sober for this long ride!
Monday, October 29, 2007
reminder for may 2010
Ahhh...another Sunday afternoon. There's something about Sundays that always seems to irritate me.Its probably the fact that on a Sunday there isn't much to look forward to, other than the impending doom of the following week which sadly has to start off with a Monday. The incessant downpour that's flooding the city of Chennai and that's forcing me to feel all cold and shivery does not help either.
While roaming around the Internet you actually figure out what a disadvantage you're at when you live in India. I mean it is impossible to buy anything decent online. Sure, you can order through Amazon but you apparently have to pay for shipping and it usually takes 35-40 days to get here. Isn't that sad?! There are so many more awesome things out there in the big bad world of online shopping that we just can't have because we live in a country that the rest of the world has decided that its too far away to deliver to! And people wonder what's with the brain drain!
Its always been a dream to live in the US for some reason...I think its because I grew up with Sweet Valley and Full House and all those various other things that made the American Dream seem like the perfect life. The later adolescent years that brought Friends, Two guys a girl and a pizza place, Dharma and Greg into my life had me convinced that I had to spend at least a year of my life living in the 'big apple'. I actually still am convinced of that. Living in a tiny apartment, riding the subway to work, escaping muggers and eating hot dogs from those tiny carts on side of the road would definitely be the life. But seriously...what is this fascination with the States?! After a little thought I realize that this isn't just some passing dream but is something real that I want and have always wanted for God knows how long. You know that there are some things you just have to do in life. This is one of mine and putting is down here is symbolic of actually telling myself that I will do this or rather that I have to do this.
Please remind me of this post two and a half years down the line because I probably will forget all my dreams and aspirations being too busy pulling out all my hair trying to graduate college.
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Isn't it amazing how I manage to publish posts days after I've actually written them! I truly am a piece of work sometimes.
While roaming around the Internet you actually figure out what a disadvantage you're at when you live in India. I mean it is impossible to buy anything decent online. Sure, you can order through Amazon but you apparently have to pay for shipping and it usually takes 35-40 days to get here. Isn't that sad?! There are so many more awesome things out there in the big bad world of online shopping that we just can't have because we live in a country that the rest of the world has decided that its too far away to deliver to! And people wonder what's with the brain drain!
Its always been a dream to live in the US for some reason...I think its because I grew up with Sweet Valley and Full House and all those various other things that made the American Dream seem like the perfect life. The later adolescent years that brought Friends, Two guys a girl and a pizza place, Dharma and Greg into my life had me convinced that I had to spend at least a year of my life living in the 'big apple'. I actually still am convinced of that. Living in a tiny apartment, riding the subway to work, escaping muggers and eating hot dogs from those tiny carts on side of the road would definitely be the life. But seriously...what is this fascination with the States?! After a little thought I realize that this isn't just some passing dream but is something real that I want and have always wanted for God knows how long. You know that there are some things you just have to do in life. This is one of mine and putting is down here is symbolic of actually telling myself that I will do this or rather that I have to do this.
Please remind me of this post two and a half years down the line because I probably will forget all my dreams and aspirations being too busy pulling out all my hair trying to graduate college.
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Isn't it amazing how I manage to publish posts days after I've actually written them! I truly am a piece of work sometimes.
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